Feeling Some Type of Way

For me this was always just a saying that people said because it’s trendy but tonight it’s the only way I could describe my feelings.

It’s Monday so naturally I’m hoping to start the week off strong.. but even after 2 cups of coffee, I’m just not feeling it. I got some laundry put away but the house still looks like I’ve done nothing.

Cup 3 of coffee… nothing

Baby starts getting sleepy so I decide to nap with her. A short 30 minutes go by and she’s awake again.

Still no energy. No motivation. No feelings really.

Being a mom was just hard today.

When I started to “feel some type of way” it was almost like a longing to go back to what life was like a few years ago. Drinking, smoking, being careless and acting a fool. I was at my heaviest weight, you could see it in my face. The alcohol had control of my life and I spent many many mornings wondering what happened the night before, having feelings of regret. I was in the lowest place I’d ever been in.

So… why was I feeling this way? Why was I longing for a drink or a couple hits?

I haven’t figured it out yet but the feeling thankfully went away.

What do you do when you’re feeling “some type of way”?